IDOLATRY

I bought a camera last week. It was used, but so, so nice - 7.1 mega pixel, nice large screen, great condition - the asking price was $59.99 but I talked the shop down to $39.99, then I spent an additional $15.00 on a memory card for it. I was so happy. I've wanted a digital camera for quite sometime, and I felt so blessed to have gotten such a nice one for such a great price.

Sometime earlier this week I lost my new camera. It's not in the house, or my car. If it's not in my sisters baby stroller, then it's for sure gone. When I realized this yesterday, I was absolutely devastated. I mean really, I was completely devastated over the loss of this thing.

I cried and was pissed off, and then I cried some more! Then at one point I just stopped and thought to myself, "I don't want to be THIS upset over a $50.00 camera." It was then that I realized that was my idol: money and things. Now, I don't have any money, and I don't have many things... but what little bit I DO have, I idolize.

I love how the Lord reveals himself as he continuously sanctifies us! It's just this on-going process that boggles my mind. As soon as I had that revelation, the decision was put inside of me to STOP crying and to NOT let this loss of a thing devastate me. I don't want to have a love of anything more than my love of Jesus, nor do I want the fear of losing material items to be greater than the holy fear I have of Him.

I thank you, Lord, for being faithful in your love, as you do a work in a me. I love you and pray that you will continue to show me how to be more like you each day.