It's amazing the work God is doing inside of me. As of late, I've become much more aware of how judgemental I am toward others, how prideful I am, and how there are people in my life that I really feel are not my equal (whether it's due to their attitude, intellegence, or otherwise).
As Jesus is working inside of me in this area, we studyed Philippians this weekend and it was incredible how once again it is proven to me that the Word of God is alive! Reading Philippians 2:3-11 really hit me:
"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature[a] God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing... "

As I am a new creation in Christ our Lord, so too can those others become a new creation in Him. As I look at them as unworthy in whatever respect, I am reminded of how unworthy I, myself, am of the grace that's been given to me.

I LOVE how the Lord is doing this to me. This process is absolutely fascinating... the Holy Spirit communicates so explicitly, I never knew this type of supernatural communication was possible. See, it's just another proof-positive of who God is, because these changes that keep on happening within me, would have NEVER been my idea... nor could I have made such drastic corrections in my life on my own.

I'm in absolute awe about what's happening in my life. I'm so in love with Jesus - it's a feeling that I cannot explain. I'm just so excited to share these events and I'm so excited to see the progression of my journey... it's amazing!!

The Delight of the Lord

Last week at my Connection group, I was talking to one of my group leaders, Heather, about a struggle I was having. Although I know that God is my father, my comforter, my savior, my friend... and I know that he loves me - I just couldn't grasp the idea that he would delight in me. I can see why he would delight in many of those around me... but me? That just didn't seem possible.

Heather shared with me a thought: At church there is a couple who just had a beautiful baby girl, Lilly. Heather asked me, "How much does Lilly have to do for her father to delight in her?" I smiled and replied, "At this stage in her life, Lilly has to do nothing at all. Her mere existance is a delight to him." (Hmmmm... that was an interesting point) She then shared Zephaniah 3:17 with me.

All last week I was really meditating on this scripture and thinking about what she said to me.

Then Sunday at church, during worship, I had an amazing experience. While singing and praising Jesus, I was really connecting to Him. My heart was filled with love overflowing as I sang along to TRUE LOVE and then to WITH EVERYTHING.

My eyes were closed (as they often are) and when I opened them, I was in the throne room of our Lord! I could see Jesus sitting before me, and as I sang to him, my arms raised, he looked into my eyes and smiled so lovingly. I closed my eyes again, thinking it couldn't be real, just my vivid imagination... but when I opened my eyes again, He appeared to me even clearer, and his smile was so radiant!

He wasn't just giving me a simple smile to say hello, he was absolutely beaming at me, and it was so clear at that moment how he delighted in my love for Him. How he enjoyed my worship of Him. He couldn't care less that I can't sing pretty like so many others - His love for me surpasses all of my human and worldly imperfections! And at that moment, I got it. I didn't just understand his delight, and although I felt it, it was even more than just a feeling... Jesus blessed me with the supernatural experience of SEEING His delight in me.

I know this was real. I was given a priceless gift: a glimpse into the throne room of our Lord. I glimpse at the real and tangible love He has for us all. Thank you Jesus for that amazing love and that amazing moment we shared. Oh how I love you.